I haven't written on this in over a year and I just went back and read ALL of my posts and i was SO GOOFY.
like I couldn't help but laugh at my self!
saying that I've changed would be a fairly large understatement.
For instance: I have graduated, i no longer mostly wear black and jeans, I havent shopped at hot topic for over 2 years, i wear dresses and skirts, I am no longer obsessed with clovers or cats, I don't wear my converses, I wear cowboy boots, my music taste has immensely diversified, i don't like mettalica, flogging molly, my chemical romance, chevelle, shinedown or pretty much anything you can hear on 93.3, I no longer believe I am an amazing photographer although I am better than I was before, I no longer believe in labels, the only time i use the term lol is for ironic purposes, I am in the proccess of redefyning my religious and political views.

oh and I'm going to college next year.

my camera is broken

This wouldn't be much of a problem if I only took pictures to have memories of a party or whatever...which is totally not a bad use of a camera by the way...but I use photography as an art, as a mode of expression.  Of course I'm not a great photographer by an artistic standard...or really any standard...but its a way for me to filter my feelings and do something that is not for anyone else but myself...other things i do, such as percussion, i do more because of other people...because I will eventually perform to other people or like in marching band, where it gives me a chance to be around people that I enjoy but wouldn't normally be around...but with photography even if i never show it to anyone else, it wouldn't matter because its for me.  but now that my camera is broken the only thing i have like that is sketching...and the only problem with sketching is that I don't have much practice with it and it still comes awkwardly and never really turns out the way i want it. 

so...im hoping i get a new one sometime soon...but i also want a djembe...god damn i feel materialistic

I really feel like eating a salad right now...not because I think I'm fat or something...I'm just craving some salad...